Huh.

There comes a time in a person's life where he/she suddenly wants to feel sad.

Or maybe that's just my masochistic tendencies speaking.

After all these years, I still find things very curious. Mostly beginning with the question, What would've happened if you weren't there that night?

If you weren't there, then I'd probably have done the unthinkable. Although it occurs to me, will people actually care? Will they even notice I'm gone? Will it actually affect them in any way? Well maybe, there'll be one less competition, but that'd be it.

Looking back, there hadn't been much who personally know the story of my past. Most of them know me as the "guy who's always happy". Which makes me think, if those people would be the one who'd do my eulogy, then I'll forever be another case of "it's always the happiest ones". Then after a month or two, those same people will most likely have forgotten about me. And the cycle continues.

Although I am thankful, I have someone by my side to listen to me. It is curious, though, to ask, of the seven billion people in the world, how many are thinking the same as me at this very moment? Yet even more so, how many have people listening so that they wouldn't do the unthinkable? But just maybe, the more relevant question is who won't have anyone listening? Who would be pushed over the edge, only to ultimately be forgotten by everyone around him/her?

I don't know why, but I like fathoming over these things. It gives me this sort of pain inside that I somehow enjoy. I'm weird, I think we've already established that. Maybe I really do have some masochistic tendencies.

Or maybe that's just the hydrated alkene speaking.

Hour 5

10 All-Time Favorite Songs

Hour 4

Describe Your Best Friends

Hour 3

Describe yourself in 10 words

Hour 2

Hour 2 - Favorite Picture

Hour 1

20 Things I Can't Live Without (in no particular order) and some random reasons why

5 Hour Personal Challenge

Recently, I really have not been updating this blog, at all. Except for that time when I had to do a challenge. So I guess, why not?

From Heck Yeah Tumblr Challenges:

Hour 1: 20 things you can’t live without.
Hour 2: Favorite picture (of whatever, yourself, your friends, your favorite artist, your favorite paint, anything, your favorite picture in the whole universe)
Hour 3: Describe yourself in 10 words.
Hour 4: Describe your best friends.
Hour 5: 10 all time favorite songs (try to post the audio of one!)

Note: These will be all be posted on a set time today, starting at 3AM (GMT+8), just because I'm feeling a bit OC.

Sudden Realizations

This page looks like crap. This whole blog for that matter. Gah.

I seriously suck at this o.o

Help Wanted: Someone to layout this for me?
Reward: My eternal gratitude for making my blog look awesome, plus lunch out I guess, depends.

If interested, place your right leg behind your neck, hop on one foot, left hand doing a fist pump motion, singing the alphabet backwards while commenting on this post. Failure to do so will merit nothing. Hooray

Mee Mee Mee Mo

Another year has come and gone. And with it, memories, friends and loved ones as well.

To the people I've met, may we build relationships that will last for the years to come. May 2013 serve as thee just me force that binds us together.

To the friends I've kept, may this continue for many years after. We've shared some memories in the past, it's time to make some more.

To the close friends I've kept and gained, thank you for keeping me in check, my insanity might come off every now and then if left unattended. Thank you for always being there for me, even when I don't want you.

To the new family I've found, I'm looking forward to the next 4 years of working with you. And many more of being with you.

To the people I've hurt, I'm sorry. No further explanation is needed, nor will suffice, but just know that even if you don't forgive me, I'll still try to better the things I've done.

To the people that hurt me, you are forgiven. Wounds are meant to heal, scars are meant to fade. Let's keep that in the past and look forward to the future.

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To my bestest friends, I love you guys, always remember that. We may have our ups and downs, we may have lost some connection every now and then, but always know that you could always find me when you need me. Let 2013 create much more awesome memories with you guys.

To the best friend I've made, lost, and eventually befriended again, I'm kind of glad to have you back again. I know we won't be seeing much of each other any time soon, but I wish you all the best, with everything.

To the most wonderful girl that I've spent the year with, thank you for always being there for me. Here's to 2013 for us, and many many more years to come. Hoping to spent the rest of my life with you. I love you >:)<

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Happy New Year everyone! May 2013 be your year :D
God bless!

-darthblacknar